Wow, this has been a crazy last few months.  I don’t even know what happened to the summer.  I have babbled a lot on twitter, but just haven’t had the energy or patience to really post anything.  I have been feeling quite boohoo, whoa is me, etc.  So, I decided to keep it to myself. 

Work has been quite tension-filled and I’m trying to decide if I hate my job, if I am bored or if I am just in the wrong field.  I don’t think I truely hate my job, I’m just not happy and I can’t put my finger on why.  I think part of it is all these arbitrary rules that are placed on me and I don’t really like that.  I am sort of bitter about it and it doesn’t make for a productive work environment. 

Personal life has been quite icky.  I am really sick of spending Saturday nights home alone, but I just can’t seem to get up the nerve to ask someone I am interested in to do something.  I’m really quite a chicken sh*t in that manor. 

To add to the list, my professor/ mentor/ friend passed away from Pancreatic cancer 3 weeks ago.  I’m still trying to accept it, mull it over, make it real.  I went to the funeral, watched him buried, but I still feel like if I call his office, I’m going to hear his voice.  He was a great professor and man.  I’m going to miss him dearly.  There have been tears off and on over the last few weeks.  It seems silly, seeing that his lovely wife lost her spouse and his children lost their father, but I am weeping for my loss of a mentor and friend.  I feel very selfish and guilty about the whole thing, but I can’t help but feel sad for the loss. 

So, that’s what has been going on in my life.  Pretty boring.